Pamela Anderson: Always Felt Like There's A Little Monster Inside Of Me

"I've been trying and I've begun to feel closest to it … and it's peeling back everything and trying to remember what my original thoughts are … It's not just about makeup, taking off the mask, but it's about why am I here, what's my purpose, why do I resonate with people, can I help in any way?"

She said was "painfully shy" during her younger years, reports aceshowbiz.com.